The more we ‘push hard’ to heal something, the more we defy the core of healing, that we are actually already whole.
This entire push to correct, fix, heal actually takes us away from the simplicity and wholeness which the healing process should induce and bring forth.
If you are with a healer, no matter how great he/she is, if he/she cannot remind you of your own wholeness and simplicity of your healing process, but rather induces fear or rather inculcates complexity, then you should know you are being manipulated to feeling ‘less than’ the whole and complete that you already are.
Healing can NEVER happen from a space of feeling ‘less than’ from within because then we are chasing the same dog who keeps barking at us and yet eludes us.
Neither do we enjoy the companionship or unconditional love of that dog nor does it ever become our ally. It instead remains our tormentor in chief.
And the worst part is, modality after modality, healing after healing, this torment does not cease.
It only perpetuates.
That is why our healing process never seems to end because like a product driven culture we too are in a rush always to fix it, heal it so that we do not feel the pain, uncertainty, anguish and fear of the chaos.
This is where we get exploited into believing that healing requires a LOT from us.
What I am learning and re-learning is that healing is actually very simple. We all need to remember that the universe is not an evil entity chasing us BUT it is a benevolent force partnering with us.
However, sometimes what seems to be working against us, is actually working towards and for us.
How only if we had our wise ones, ancient ones, elders, true loving guides in the human realm they would so profoundly re-iterate this wisdom to us.
This is where our connection to the Divine/creator/to our own SELF/Great Spirit is wholesomely encouraged to be developed.
After Paul left, my sense of self has been extremely diminished. And the repetitive and the only message I could trust coming from Paul was, “Develop your connection” to Spirit.
This statement in its entirety is only opening up its various petals, now, as I reflect upon my illness (mental, emotional, spiritual and physical).
The healing journey though feels endless and painful, is and can actually be simple.
All we need to learn is to just BE with our self, understand the SELF and reclaim the SELF.
Rest everything automatically falls into its place. Even the pieces of the puzzle which so often befuddle us always.
Because that is part of being “human”. That is part of relating. That is part of allowing. That is part of Being.
To hold back even when someone extends themselves is fear.
It is ok to be cautious. It is ok to not want to trust or be all out suddenly. But remember to be not so cautious that you draw a wall instead of a boundary.
Blessings for blossoming of your Spirt, heart, mind and body in 2021.
Feeling empty, rejected, betrayed, unseen, unrecognized, unacknowledged, invalidated, over compensating, proving, having this deep desire to help and fix others, over extending one’s self always and compromising on one’s own needs, always comes from a deep space of feeling unloved within.
Whatever be the reason for not feeling loved, it is the root cause of all our problems.
Lack of love causes lack of abundance.
Feeling unloved has a potential to create deep rooted financial issues as well. When we feel deeply unloved, we set our inner programming to something is wrong with me, leading to feeling deeply small, unworthy, inadequate within.
This could lead us to living highly disempowering lives. We either over compensate by being obsessed with seeking material pleasures or our finances get depleted and inadequate as well.
Feeling unloved (lack of love) leads to several addictions
When we feel deeply unloved, we tend to fill that void of love through work, sex, smoking, alcohol, food, other substances, over giving, over mothering, through relationships, travel or any other over indulgence.
Addictions are nothing but our own unconscious way of seeking to fill that emptiness or void (internal) through something (external).
Feeling unloved creates health issues.
When I was a child, I used to fall ill very frequently. When I grew up and embarked on the journey of my healing, I attended a course in hypnotherapy. During the course, we were connecting with our inner children. I took up this issue of my acidity.
When we regressed to the past, it was uncovered that the illness was the child self’s way of screaming for love and attention.
Yes, feeling unloved creates health issues.
Feeling unloved creates failure in relationships
When we feel deeply unloved within, we seek to fill that emptiness by seeking love outside. When we seek to enter into a relationship from a space of feeling unworthy, unloved within, we tend to get clingy or co dependant in our relationships. We either land up over giving (without realizing it), we lose our self even more and we seek the other to make us feel better through the external love or attention.
But the hole that is lurking inside doesn’t get filled no matter how much external love comes in. That void continues to exist like a never ending pit. A wounded girl feeling unloved WILL attract a wounded boy feeling unloved or who will further project that feeling of being unloved in her by his unconscious actions.
A wounded boy WILL attract a wounded girl who no matter how much she loves him, he will never feel enough and he will continue seeking it and thirsting for it like an endless well which never gets full and never feels fulfilled. She will continue projecting his void in some way or the other and both will create another recipe for disaster or a dysfunction.
Many a times the only expression of our pain that we feel is through our anger. Anger many times is a result of feeling violated or unloved within.
When one feels unloved, the deep rooted belief that develops in a person is “I am not loved because something might be wrong with me.” This creates deep unworthiness and feeling of being small within.
When we feel small inside, we always try to compensate this feeling either by projecting our flamboyance or by proving we are superior to the other. This itself begins the fall of all good within.
This proving or unworthiness often leads to extreme projections of greed, control, violence and abuse.
Depression
When we feel rejected or unloved by one or all, we unconsciously tend to reject the Self. We forget who we are in order to fit in. This rejection of the Self often creates disassociation, disconnection, deep sense of sadness emanating from this disconnection from one’s true self and in extreme cases anxiety and depression.
We all long for feeling connected and this connection begins with our own self. When we feel unloved, we lose trust in the process of life, we lose our childlike innocence in the wonderment of life and it often leads to feeling disappointed, angry, disheartened and frustrated with life.
These are but a few evils of feeling unloved. And yet we run for seeking the fulfillment of love through external measures like money, greed, control, relationships, substances, work, sex etc.
So what is the solution? Well there isn’t any except the realization that if we have been deeply unloved by the other, it now becomes our primary responsibility to love one’s own child self.
There has been a lot of talk around the planetary shifts which took place on December 21st. Two major planets Saturn and Jupiter, came in conjunction with each other that night. It was called the birth of a new consciousness, moving into the age of Aquarian or progressing into 5D consciousness.
So, have we understood clearly what these aspects really mean? Is it going to be that simple?
While I am neither an expert in astrology nor in dimensions, what I have understood in layman’s terms is this:
3D = ego-based consciousness (unhealthy ego ) and 5D = heart-based consciousness, aka the Shamanic way of being and living.
So yes, a new era awaits. A rebirth awaits.
We are being ushered into a new way of being, one more heart-based, more in sync, and in alignment with the journey of our souls.
When we align our life path with that of the Soul, rather than desires emanating from a mind-based or ego-based way of being, we begin to reclaim our Divinity. Doing so, we let go of self-induced bondage.
This is the beginning of a great return. Mystics call it moksha, some call it enlightenment, while some call it a new age.
However, our programming is linked to struggle. The old paradigm stated we must work hard to succeed. Obsessed with money, our self-esteem is tied to our income. Living thus, we undermine our heart. We neglect BEing in a consciousness’s value state of love or in what is called the unity or zero field.
Often, we are more concerned with how much money we are making. We ponder how we can have a bigger home, a bigger car, and bigger everything. Even those on the spiritual path are more concerned with making money rather than following their calling and being of service.
This desire for a bigger everything has led us to where we are right now. We do not know who we are, nor why we are here. We may or may not have the so-called money, yet, there is a deep sense of incompleteness and longing that lingers in every being.
Mindless expansion without really seeking what we genuinely need has led us to a great imbalance. Instead, living in alignment with our heart and Soul and in partnership with Mother Earth brings us what we seek.
Yes, money matters; however, it is only energy. But the intention with which we put into our work hugely contributes to this abundance. Are we operating out of the heart field consciousness? Are we being of service, or are we operating out of our ego-centric desires?
Can the ushering of this new age automatically change and bring everything to balance?
Well, not overnight. It is going to take work. More and more people will be pushed to an awakening, nudged to follow what their heart and Soul truly desires.
This may create more chaos. It might mean getting out of our comfort zones and doing that which feels totally intangible or uncertain. Yet, old ways won’t work anymore.
The changes will depend on how effortlessly we apply these inner callings and how much we resist.
There are so many layers to unfolding into this state of BEING, and a colossal metamorphosis awaits.
To the ease and extent to which we are able to allow this metamorphosis and to the extent we are able to differentiate and become aware of our healthy ego-self which liberates and unhealthy ego-self which binds, will decide the ease or discomfort of this transition.
Know this – whatever energy and intention you hold deep within will manifest with ease. BUT, are you willing to get out of your ego? Are you prepared to enter into the deep trust, inner knowing, and willing to surrender to your heart?
Are you willing to dive into the unknown and follow the whispers of your Soul?
It’s going to be a tricky road ahead, a road filled with tons of opportunities for this metamorphosis and a road paving the way for a heart-centered way of being that births an alignment with the healthy ego-centered way of being.
One can call this 5D or Christ consciousness or the age of Aquarian or the oneness of twin flame union energies.
Names don’t matter. What matters is the core understanding of this simple, profound aspect of the metaphoric field that is opening for all of us.
It may get challenging for those who fear inner work; it may come with ease for those who are present and aware.
Nevertheless, metaphoric fields generate chaos and clarity, grief and joy, contraction and expansion, drama, and simplicity.
It has all begun, and it shall continue to expedite in the coming days and months and year.
Watch attachments to situations, or certain people, fears, beliefs, and comfort zone ways of being.
Therefore, show up for what presents itself. Play along with the changes, surrender, trust, and deepen into your heart consciousness.
2021 is going to be another heck of a ride. And remember, it’s not about the ride. It is more about the Rider.
My heart aches to see so much corruption, manipulation and control in spiritual sects as well.
It’s like in the olden times witches and women with spiritual prowess were physically tortured and killed and now a different kind of suppression exists.
The suppression through controlling people /spiritual seekers through creating cults, co dependency, control, manipulation and through their mind.
The witches still continue to be annihilated and the sad part is they can’t even see it or realize it.
The mind games and controlling the other is so subtle that the seeker doesn’t even realize it.
Very sad state of affairs.
The above introspection made me write what a spiritual teacher should be like.
The best teacher is the one who has the courage to say, “go fly, you can do it on your own”.
The true teacher doesn’t hold the students close to their chest and create dependency.
The true teacher let’s them learn to do things on their own and make their own mistakes and chart their own part.
The true teacher doesn’t decide on the behalf of students but rather lets the student make his/her own decisions and allows them to be independent.
Everyone needs a tribe but there is a difference between a cult and a community.
Most spiritual teachers are falling prey to the same patriarchal divide of superiority and inferiority. The teacher is superior and the seeker is inferior.
The circle of oneness is once again falling prey to manipulation, divide, control and toxic co dependence between the teacher and the seeker.
The moment a seeker starts putting the teacher on a pedestal, he/she begins the journey of losing his/her own uniqueness, beauty, magnificence and sovereignty.
I am not saying don’t respect the teacher or look up to them for guidance and leadership but beware of the hierarchal leadership emanating from our current dysfunctional existing set ups and a feminine influenced leadership that creates community not a cult, that promotes healthy collaboration n is not afraid to help students rise to their own glory and is ultimately about oneness and not divide.
We have such deep rooted wounding and insecurities that we now use our spiritual gifts in a manipulative way to prove to the students we are indispensable.
It is time for great awareness amongst the spiritual so called leaders as well.
Are you as a leader creating healthy influence or out of your own fears and ego and insecurities, creating toxic co dependency between yourself and your students aka one more dysfunction aka refuting the purpose of spiritual quest and healing altogether??
It’s time for some introspection for those who call themselves teachers /path showers on the spiritual path.
